Naptime is bliss.
I find myself tonight with a rare and spare moment to myself. Hubby is playing D&D with friends downstairs, and my little one has gone to sleep quite early. Normally she goes to sleep between 10 and 11, but tonight, 8:30. And she’s still sleeping, so that’s a good sign.
I have all kinds of thoughts swimming around in my head and I feel like I need to squeeze it all into this post because I don’t know when I’ll have time to post again. Lately all of my spare time has been spent working since I am working from home and have had quite a bit to get done.
She started school today, for a couple hours. I’m having her go about two hours a day this week, 4 hours next week, and then full time (~7hrs) the week after. I’ll work half days next week, and this is my last week to be working at home. I’m a little sad that my time to be home with her is over, but she is growing so much and changing each day that it is more exciting than sad and I can’t wait to see what she will do next.
I am having a much easier time with the daycare bit than I thought I would- when I was pregnant and checking out daycares I cried every time I went to one. The thought of leaving my baby made me so sad and she hadn’t even been born yet. But part of it was hormones and the other part of it I guess is that I realize that this life we have is her mockup as well as mine. and many other parents have encouraged me and told me that she’ll be well-adjusted, socia lized and will have fun. I think that is true, it is just hard right now because she is so little.
But, fortunately I have a job I love and am looking forward to getting back to, that really helps. I think if I hated my job I would have a really hard time with this.
So today she went to school for a few hours. She did really well. She started to cry when I left because it was her lunchtime. She got her diapee changed a couple times, ate a lot, and slept, which is what babies do. When I picked her up she was playing in a boppy with some little rings in her hand. Just 2 days ago she started grabbing rings and toys in her hands. She was in really good hands. I love her teachers and her school. She gets a lot of attention and there is always someone there who can hold her. I think she will do well and easing into this was probably one of the smartest things I could have done… it’s making it so much better for both of us.
So life with the little one is great, and I am looking forward to getting used to our “new normal”, getting back to work and giving them as much as I can. They have been really great to me through the whole baby bit, I couldn’t have asked for more. Now I am ready to kick some ass for them.
One of these days I want to make a blog just for Sorcha and her pictures. I also need to scrapbook. I don’t know how other moms get this stuff done, even if they didn’t have to work, it’s hard to get anything done with a baby, other than taking care of that sweet baby.
